"I thought you changed but I should have known
You play nice for a time but then you do me wrong
I thought long and hard about what I should say
But when I was through it just came out this way"
Never again. Never again will you be allowed to spit on me so shamefully.
So, happy 2010? It's been a minute- a long minute indeed. How've you been? I've been to there and back again and damn does it taste so good now. So much clarity, so much desire, just soooo much life. I'm living again. "Had me fighting for air laying on the ground". Once upon a time. Now all I can do is laugh. Laugh at what has happened. Laugh at where I am versus where any of you are. The view from up here is amazing. How does it look from down there? Ha, what do I care? Succeeding in school tremendously, steady job, reliable friends, positive pursuits. What more could I ask for? I am happy with 98% of everything around me. I haven't felt this way in quite some time. Who ever said this growing up thing had to be so bad? I kind of like it- kind of like knowing I am better of and being able to walk away. As I walked away from the wreckage you were consumed by it. I still feel sorry. You're such a hurricane. Bringing nothing but destruction and pain. Never again will I write a thing mentioning you. "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year...wish you were here" Not anymore. I've changed my paths and no longer desire anything of the sort. Junior in college. That's a hard thing to sink my teeth into. I feel like I was just a junior in high school ha. My, my how the times do fly. Looking back and reading old pages of life makes me want to vomit haha UGH! How was I ever like that? First semester at GSU is almost over- yes, I know it's only midterms but look how fast this came? It'll be gone in the blink of an eye. Taking a semester off was the best thing I could have ever done. Never have I loved just encompassing myself in anything and everything school related. I have come to appreciate it all. Now lets just hope for the next six years (at least) that I can keep this motivation ha. Spring break in T-minus six days- headed to Savannah! I think I may start this back up. I do like writing the occasional journal. Maybe next time it'll be a little more exciting.
Bitch, holla back!
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