LAWLZZZ!!!

So here I sit cracking up reading these old posts and how fucking emotional they tend to be but, then again, I am an emotional writer. I eat when I am happy and purge my words when I am sad. Now I have chosen to allow a select few to read. That's a strange thing for me to do, my journal is generally private. I think I like the idea of letting the few into my skull. Hello there, you few! So, anyways, where to begin? No clue. Sitting watching Rachel Zoe and going over the first day of the new semester (shut up, Rachel Zoe is awesome). This semester is going to be quite the interesting adventure. Last semester was practically perfect so this time around has some big shoes to fill. Same place I was four months ago but none of it feels the same. Routine is different, lunch is different, it's all just different. Rubs me the wrong way right now. Even starting with hot air makes it strange, I am ready for the chill. Mmm, come to me cold weather with adventures :) I cannot wait. One more year left and then I have to really step it up with the big dogs!!! WHOA!!! Where'd the time go? It's been quite the first day, though ha. Late, period, emotional ahahaha. Laughable, completely. Okay, FYI to those of you who decide to stick around to read- I change thoughts mid-sentence so odds are I am just going to come off as a mess buuut then again what's the different in real life? Aha this zooming brain of mine is nonstop, bare with me ;)

Later, gator!

I got a stone where my heart should be

"I thought you changed but I should have known
You play nice for a time but then you do me wrong
I thought long and hard about what I should say
But when I was through it just came out this way"

Never again. Never again will you be allowed to spit on me so shamefully.

So, happy 2010? It's been a minute- a long minute indeed. How've you been? I've been to there and back again and damn does it taste so good now. So much clarity, so much desire, just soooo much life. I'm living again. "Had me fighting for air laying on the ground". Once upon a time. Now all I can do is laugh. Laugh at what has happened. Laugh at where I am versus where any of you are. The view from up here is amazing. How does it look from down there? Ha, what do I care? Succeeding in school tremendously, steady job, reliable friends, positive pursuits. What more could I ask for? I am happy with 98% of everything around me. I haven't felt this way in quite some time. Who ever said this growing up thing had to be so bad? I kind of like it- kind of like knowing I am better of and being able to walk away. As I walked away from the wreckage you were consumed by it. I still feel sorry. You're such a hurricane. Bringing nothing but destruction and pain. Never again will I write a thing mentioning you. "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year...wish you were here" Not anymore. I've changed my paths and no longer desire anything of the sort. Junior in college. That's a hard thing to sink my teeth into. I feel like I was just a junior in high school ha. My, my how the times do fly. Looking back and reading old pages of life makes me want to vomit haha UGH! How was I ever like that? First semester at GSU is almost over- yes, I know it's only midterms but look how fast this came? It'll be gone in the blink of an eye. Taking a semester off was the best thing I could have ever done. Never have I loved just encompassing myself in anything and everything school related. I have come to appreciate it all. Now lets just hope for the next six years (at least) that I can keep this motivation ha. Spring break in T-minus six days- headed to Savannah! I think I may start this back up. I do like writing the occasional journal. Maybe next time it'll be a little more exciting.

Bitch, holla back!