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Oh, me. How I do love you. Insecurities are fleeting. I like this.

Realizations

Today I was just think,think,thinkin. Nothing new, nothing different. Then it hit me like a back of bricks. Maybe it was me who left You first? I lost the faith and I lost the effort. So perhaps I deserved this struggle? Perhaps it was Your way to show me that Your help is needed. I lost faith a long time ago. Maybe that's why I wonder where God has gone. I left Him first. I am not a religious person, at all. I don't believe in organized religion- I just believe in having a faith. I know You're there- somewhere. I just haven't seen You in a long, long time. But now I am beginning to see that maybe it's because I have been running in the opposite direction. Once upon a time I felt so sure of life and You. I had my struggles but somehow I was helped through them all. This time it just keeps piling on. More and more is learned and lost. Now I see that maybe it is all me. With eyes wide shut I keep you out. I'm too stubborn for help. I've tried to take it all on by myself for a while now. I should change that. I need to accept what You give and use it to the full potential. I am oh so sorry for my lost ways. Life is my own adventure though. I had to go off roading for at least a minute there. Back to You now? I am going to try. I am going to try to find that faith. Paths will meet again and this time I won't be so blind and stubborn. I'm coming.

Don't leave just yet

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside and

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind,
if you feel I’m letting go,
just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side,

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind cause
After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
After all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Any other reason
to stay instead of leavin’
after all, yeah


"Lets give this one more chance before we say goodbye
don't leave just yet I was mistaken,
my hands are tied my time is wasting
and I just want you to know, that I need you now,
don't leave just yet "

Don't give up so easily. Hold out for it- we've come too far to stop this now. Speak those sweet, sweet words to me once again. I know you have it in you. I know I have it in me. Too much is right for it to be wrong. Anything that is worth it is worth fighting for. Life is an occasion- rise to it. Rise to where you belong. And you belong with me- not trash.
Breathe out so I can breathe you in. I do wait for the days to share the same air as you. Live for it. When it rains it pours but in the end it can't rain forever. I just wish this little rain cloud above my head would clear up and let the sunshine back in. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know, dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away.