Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life.....

So much going through my head. So much push and pull going on currently. It amazes me how much can change over night and within such a short period of time- today becomes yesterday and everything changes and turns me upside down. Mind blowing, really. Today was absolutely amazing. There was so much I wanted to say and do but disregarded the thoughts. I really don't understand it at all. I don't understand me either. I don't know what makes it so hard. I don't know why the decisions that are being made are being made. All I can do is stand back and laugh. How does someone at this point change themselves so easily and so readily? I mean, I get why I do suppose but I've never really been one to care what others think or do. I am not changing myself to fit a world that can't and won't stand on its own two anyways. It just breaks my heart for the reasoning behind it all. I don't like this, I don't like it at all. What I grew to know and what it's all becoming now are two completely different things. Shake it off. Let it all go. Who cares what other people do? You shouldn't break so easily. Be the change you want to see in the world. I don't know what the seed of all this is but I wish I could fix it. I wish it was like then rather than what it is now. I'm sure this is all one big jumble of confusing words but I know what I am talking about. It means something to me. "I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down". I'll show you the end and I'll show you it pays off to be the one decent person out there in the world. Stop conforming. Shake your hands clean of this mess and care again. I miss it. I miss it so much. Summertime is coming and I hope it all unfolds in a positive manner. Not happy right now- not at all. Once upon a time. Oh, once upon a time. Come back please. Set me free. I'm waiting<3