Life.

I've been thinking on this all day. I can guarantee that it's not going to be the same or as well written as it would have been earlier because I can never sit down and write out my thoughts when they're fresh but whatever. Life's been interesting this year. Interesting to say in the least. Within the past twelve months I have grown greatly and have learned so much of myself. It's amazing how you really never stop growing or learning- if you choose to. I love stepping back and watching these lost souls floating around me. No desires or goals in life. No passion or care. No motivation to create the life they could achieve and appreciate. I always ask why? How? How can you be so content with just being....well, content? Who ever said you have to settle? Fuck settling- I refuse. You only live life once and you're never guaranteed that next breath. Screw wasting time anymore. Don't get me wrong, slow and steady does win the race but if you never take the risks then you'll forever be pacing around in the same circle. Never do I want to cross a road that I've already walked down. Changes- I always want to see the changes. Situations can and will be the same but the outcome will always be different. I refuse to accept anything else. I decided a long time ago that I will never look back and regret. Never. I know sometimes I'll look back and realize," Hey, I could have done that differently. Could have had a handle on it so much better." But take that fucking lesson and run with it. Put it in your pocket and try it different. Grow in your own person. I am not the same person as I was and come tomorrow I'll be different yet again. I am forever changing. Now, no, this does not mean that my character will change or my being as a whole will change but I am learning. I am fine tuning myself for the future and I will continue to be a damn good person. I'm letting go of the fears and grabbing what I want. Slowly but surely I will do it. I think everyone should be this way. "Look at the stars, look how they shine for you." Damn straight. This world is ours for the taking. I am going to take my part. I don't even know where I got off for this rant but I've just had this ball rolling and growing in my thoughts. And now it's time to put it down. Hesitations lead to regrets. No more hesitating. No more "what if's?" What's there honestly to lose? Things are always changing. No one can say that they haven't been through nonsense in their life and, if they can, then they live a pretty sad and sheltered life anyways. If you've made it out of hard spots then don't you think you can do it again? It takes bad to appreciate the good and it only tastes so much sweeter when you've had to work your ass for it. I'm rambling. But in my head it's all straight and clear ha. That's all that matters. Anyways- fucking take what you want in life. Live that shit to the fullest. Live knowing you enjoyed every moment of it while you were living with it, prepare for tomorrow but don't allow it to hinder your experiences. Because tomorrow is never a guaranteed. I'm want to be known for how well I lived my life and that I wasn't some waste of space in the universe. I have made a difference somewhere and will continue to do so. Get on my level.